Onward as a writer

Lately I've enjoyed being able to write again. Now that I'm sane.

I tell you Therresa, when I read your post about post partum depression I almost wanted to jump right out of my seat (particularly when you described it as "chinese water torture"). Its good and sad to know that I am not alone. Ahh, and yes it's finally good to be back.

So I'm back but have to say I think I've been mellowed out just a tad. Chores slide and disagreements resolve a lot more often than they used too. And not that we really argued that much but...well its amazing what going crazy can do to your relationship. In our case it truly brought Kevin and I closer than we had been for a couple of years. As funny as it sounds, I do thank the Lord for allowing me to go crazy for just a bit, for what came of it.

Lately, we've returned to our normal routine which entails waking way before I'm ready, caused by a little Andrew boy jumping on my bed, just happy to see his momma and little sister. Then add to that a mixture of playtime, chores, diaper changes and feedings and writing thrown in when I'm too tired to do anything else, and that's my day. As I continue my chelations, hopefully the fatigue will decrease a bit. (I get at minimum 9 hours of sleep every night so it isn't that I'm not getting enough sleep...I'm just a tired person right now!! And of course there is the occasion night feeding that will add to that but come on, 9 hours!!)

Okay and I'm a bit frustrated. I've mentioned before, in previous posts that I was working on a story. I worked on most of it around when I got pregnant with Alane and in fact, I had about 20 chapters written even. When we moved I loaded it all onto one of those little flash drives so we could clear out our whole computer and reformat it, kind of like having a brand new computer again. Well after we cleared it I went to load my story back on and before I got to, I got distracted and left the flash drive plugged into our computer. Unfortunately, Andrew thought it looked interesting. He snapped it right out of the computer, not pulling it out the way it is supposed to be detached...and it broke in half, leaving me a worthless flash drive and no story.

While it really is a bummer to have all 20 chapters of my story gone it has provided me with the opportunity to go back and rethink my story and create a whole new one. Because even though I spend all that time and lost it, (and I do miss the characters and things I'd written) I've come out of Alane's pregnancy, birth and the post-partum stuff a whole new person in regards to my ideas for writing and my vision in what I want out of it. It is hard to describe but as I experienced my story, then when through all the stuff the past year, it has really seemed to be exactly what my story had been called: an "Awakening".

So continuing on, I'm excited to steal the best parts I remember from that story, to have learned what it was to experience moving through a story that far, and to learn how exciting it was to have characters that make the story fun.

I'm sure there are people out there who are saying..."I've read her blog, she thinks she's a writer?" At least I imagine people saying that, because I admit that I don't have any unique eloquence with words. I just have an imagination, so I let it take me places...and lo and behold a story is born. I recommend you give it a try, its lots of fun :)

If anyone out there has any advise on plot development, I'd love some. (That's where I'm lacking..I've got the imagination to basically sit down and write...I just usually don't get very far, lol.)

And anyways I'm going to be brave and continue to call myself a writer, I mean all writers started somewhere! (Like I read somewhere...there are no great writers...just re-writers, and I'm not afraid to re-write like crazy!)

Well, I've got to go, a little sweetheart is waking from her nap...